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So almost 2 weeks before his sentencing they move my son back to Comal County. They don't feed him well there and he was just starting to put some weight back on up in Burnet. He always looks so horrible when I go visit him in Comal! I JUST HATE THIS. I wish they would at least feed them properly in there. Many are in there "innocent" until PROVEN guilty and they are still treated as criminals.
i want to thank all you Moms on here for your love and kind words of encouragement my son was taken out of Solitary a few days ago Thank God! his trial is April 30th...He is hanging on to God...and seeking him...Thank God for that too...! now its on my end to trust him as well...I new the victims and the there families...which makes it even harder to deal with I have a lot of enemies....who wish me and my family harm because of there loss which is tremendous...but i cannot focus on that...my sole focus is on my Son unfortunate he did commit these crimes but during a Pyshcosis episode becuz of being on multiple drugs at once for a long period....He did not gireve his Dad's death none of us did....we all need healing and hope:) what the devil meant for bad God will turn around for GOOD!!I have to believe this...thanks again everyone much appreciation...
some days, taking his calls are just too emotional. I have to remember where we are in life. I have to remember what my son is facing each day. I have to remember how his and our lives got out of control. some days are just hard!
I know i don't share often enough but today is a little different.... and it is to Thank All of you parents who take the time to facilitate card programs and for all of you to take the time to write my Son (he can't receive cards only letters on white paper) handwritten letters. He just spent his 3rd month in the shu with no privileges at all not to mention he was sentenced to 30 years in a federal unit the day he turned 21, and has not a visit since then 2013(EVER). And this is because they have him in Virginia and we are just poor people from Texas, living check to check which rarely would allow for a 15 hour road trip to visit him. I said all that to say this Grant has figured out a way to get moved to Texas, but it requires several months in the shu as he awaits transfer to a SMU in Pennsylvania where he will spend 9 months before being moved to Beaumont........yes Texas!!!! The shu seems to be a place where anything goes and the guards really push that to the limit......but Grant has been alone for the last few weeks as his celly was released(yes he had a celly in that tiny cell) he receives letters on a semi constant basis from me and well, ME! I got a letter from him today asking me to Thank All of You parents as he received a letter everyday this week from you guys and he said that made it bearable because it helped him to realize even though they came and took EVERYTHING from Him his stamps, his paper, even his pencil and book but I can't say EVERYTHING because they left his Bible.......and He said that and a letter everyday of the week from you guys is how he did not break/////// So Thank You all from Grant and I!!!!! When he smiles I give myself permission to smile as well. I could never Thank you all enough!!!!
It's less than a year and half but already seems like forever. I haven't seen my son since his sentsenting. I'm going to give a little back story.
Hi, my name is teri. I am 48yrs old. I have had 6 children. My kids weren't always with me. I'm 12 years clean n sober. My oldest son is 31 and was convicted of deliberate homicide. His sentenceing was Jan 17th 2017. He is not eligible for parole for 45 years. I am disabled. My son took care of me. Now it has fallen onto my youngest, she is only 20. I have tried several times to go visit him. Life gets in my way. I ended up homeless when he was arrested. I was living in my truck for about 7 months. Till my daughter asked me to move to billings to live with her. This Thursday my daughter is taking me to see him. I don't know if I can handle this. I skippsk alot of visiting while he was in county because it caused me so much stress It made me sick. How do I face him? I love him so very much. I don't see the man they portrayed in court. Dang its hard to text while crying. I see my little boy. And he's hurting. I have to stop for now. I'm crying to much. I write more soon.
Max is gone. They took him from county on Monday. We havent heard from him since sunday. It is tearing us apart! I check MDOC every hour to see if they have uploaded any information and his picture, so I can see that he is ok. Ive put money in his account so he can call when he gets too. I put extra money so that if he can get snacks, he has the money to do it. And now we just wait... and wait... My daughter is a Junior in highschool. Has never gotten a B in her life. Got her first B. She is devasted. She misses her brother so much. Her other 3 brothers are not around (college, lives out of state) so it's just her and us. And we are falling apart ourselves, right in front of her. I wish I was stronger so that I could make all her fears go away, but Im not. And Im not sure when I will be... Our entire family is one big emotional mess. I pray everynight that this will be easier when I wake up and I will make it through at least work without breaking down. Not even close yet... :(
Hi moms. Hope this finds everyone healthy. It has been a rough few months for me. Now if I can stay somewhat healthy longer than a week or two, I can get back in the mix of writing notes and cards and checking in on all of you. This past Sunday Michael celebrated 731 days of total sobriety, along with being home now 8 1/2 months. He celebrated all day with friends and mtgs. Got over 150 comments of support and encouragement on FB, presented me with his 2 yr coin, and I gave him a note and a jar of coins, that I started collecting daily while he was incarcerated. Told him whatever was there was his. He is doing great, continues to give back to others and goes to mtgs daily. We have a great repor with his PO now. She just comes to house, which saves him a trip to PO office. Sometimes it’s a urine ck, most times just to talk.
I went to visit my son today. I was not happy with what he had to say. My son has been in prison for almost 4 years. He is 25 years old and has been in counseling since he was 9. None of the counselors helped him and never found out his terrible secret. We finally found out when he went to jail. He was sexually assaulted when he was a child by an older almost adult person. Dillon never said a word. He was just always angry. Well Dillon told us after he was arrested that he is a transgender person and has always wanted to be a girl. I didn't take it to seriously because I thought it was just for attention. He went to all the trouble of changing his name to Riley Nicole and it is her legal name now. I have a hard time calling him a her and using Riley as his name.
So today at our visit he tells us that he was taken to the hospital on January 10th by squad because he tried to cut his penis off. He said that his depression finally took over. He was bleeding out and almost died. I am his emergency contact at the prison and the hospital but no one notified us. How is it that I am just hearing about this now?? He said he told the people in medical at the prison to call me. They never did. He is on phone restriction right now because he quit his job there. So he never got to call and talk to us. I can usually talk some sense into him. What do they think is an emergency there? I think a person bleeding to death is considered an emergency. Am I crazy or is the mom in me?
I guess I have been waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak. He talks about killing himself sometimes. I hate when he does that. He knows how I feel about it. I was a young mom when I had my daughter. She was killed in a car accident along with her father a long time ago. It was one of the worse times of my life. I always told Riley that I would never want to go thru that kind of pain again. Today I swallowed my heart. He or she says Mom I'm ok.
Thanks for listening to me ramble.
Barb
Driving is the worst for me. That is when my mind goes to everything we could have, should have done. What we didnt see (drug addiction), why didnt we see it... All the "what if's", Why didnt we", ect... Then the tears start rolling and its hard to breathe. Im still in shock. THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING.
Does anyone have suggestions for submitting an appeal for my son's daughter to be allowed to visit him. She aws initially approved only to be told after she had visited 6 or 7 times that she had been approved by mistake. This is ridiculous however part of his sentence was a no contact with minors clause - I wrote a letter to the DOC and received a response stating basically "Sorry - we are not changing our mind" She is 9 years old and if this stands she will not be able to visit until the age of 18 - by then the connection with her Daddy will be lost as much as we can say phone calls and video visits will help it is not the same. She is absolutely heartbroken and so is my son. She and I (his Mom) are the only two visitors he has and to take that away is cruel in my opinion. I will engage the legal help I can get through my Employee Assistance program at work but am not feeling very hopeful - in fact it is very very sad!!
Hello..im new here.is there anyone in missouri? Im in hillsboro mo
I took my grandson to see his daddy David Saturday. We had an awesome visit. His son is also named David but goes Davey. He is 4 and half, my son had lost his visits over contraband cigs or whatever I dont really ask anymore. In the past the question of contact visits were an issue. The two guards in the visiting room were awesome. One of them did ask my son to talk to him but reassured him it was no big deal. Just reminded him that he couldnt physically pick him up or carry him. Which we worked around well. They have a play area with tons of legos and they played together for 3 hours . Building and laughing lots of snacks and oh boy chocolate candy!! It was really a great time got christmas pictures taken. I met a mother who was there for the first time to see her son and she hadnt hugged her son in a year. I usually cry afterwards when I get home alone. But this year seemed more emotional for me this is going to be his 4th xmas away. I miss more today than ever. I have cried all morning, took my grandson home yesterday. Trying to keep busy to not think about it and to remember to be grateful for an awesome visit. Praying for all you moms and dads and sons and daughters .
