I am so worried for Jess today - her sister Jamie is going to visit for the first time, and it's the first time they will be alone together since our nightmare has happened. Jamie has Jessie's son and she is so bitter and resentful, refuses to let Jess see her baby saying "she did this to herself" no empathy what so ever... what's worse, she and has plans to confront Jessica about what has happened .. I can't stop it and I can't warn Jess that it will be today, although we've talked about it :( If Jamie makes a scene, she will be escorted out and removed from the visitation list. I'm wondering if this is her intention? If that happens, she will have an excuse why she can't take the baby to visit. Whats worse, Jessica can be punished if the visit goes badly.... Prayers that Jamie remains calm and they have a peaceful visit... prayers that seeing her sister will soften her heart and bring her back to the place where she loved her sister... prayers that healing takes place today...
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Oh My Goodness!! We finally got our visit... I drove (3 hrs) on friday ready to visit saturday morning, I was turned away at the door - apparently they have Valentines Day marked as a special visit for only Phase III inmates.. Jessica is only Phase I. SO, I stayed the night at a friends and went again Sunday morning. I can still feel her hugs - it was so wonderful and I cried (happy) just to be able to hold her and kiss her beautiful face. It was a nice long 4 hour visit but it flew by much too quickly. I'm going again, every other weekend. She is doing pretty good except for some harassment from the CO's, you see, Jessica used to be a CO. Now, because of the others, EVERYBODY knows she used to work there, inmates and all. This is not a good scenario - she's been confronted by both CO and inmate already. One girl tried to pick a fight with her. She says she's ok and they're lightening up on her now and being a bit nicer. I thank God she is in 23 hour lockdown (sad) because it keeps her safe and away from those that might want to harm her or get her in trouble. She has a TV now and a CD player with music and plenty of books to keep her occupied. She will be reviewed in 6 months and we're praying she is moved back to medium custody at that time... 10 days and counting until our next visit :)
As I was leaving this morning, ready for the 3 hour drive, ready to go hug my baby, ready to have a good, happy visit... I stopped to check our po box down the street to see if there was any new mail... there was :( They moved her again - they placed her in the horrible, awful, worst of the worst units, back to 23 hour lockdown .. she says, they made a mistake and someone submitted an over-ride that shouldn't have been... she should never have been placed in medium custody they say... she's in with the monsters now.. she is so sad and full of tears in her letter and now, so am I .. I can barely see to type this.. I'm not sure what her visiting hours are now or what days so I will wait until she calls... tears.. tears.. tears
I just found that I have been approved to send my daughter a "securepak" .. it's something like a care package. The thing is, my approval came from my application to visit - it's an all around application for visits, phone calls, securepaks, etc.. I've been checking online daily to see if I can order, figured, if I can order, that means I can visit too?? I'M SO THRILLED because today, I CAN ORDER!! So.. I'm pacing the floor waiting for her to call me... if it all means what I think it does, then next Saturday, I can go and actually hug my baby for the first time in almost a year.. big tears of happiness today!
Well we had sentencing today....thought we would find out when it was today and ended up the judge had an opening so he just did it now, was NOT prepared for that...The transport deputy that was taking him back to county did let us have a couple minutes with him after the hearing and I got to hug my boy for the 1st time in 9 months. So now here we go ton the next part of our journey 5545 days(16 years minus time served) until he comes home.
My son will probably be going to prison soon, unless a miracle happens. He wants to know how he can become a pen pal was an inmate? Can anyone give me advice?
Well I just got off the phone with Coreys attorney and we go to court tomorrow for a change of plea pre trial and I am scared to death. I think this all just hit me that my boys is really going to prison for 16 years and there is nothing I can do about it.
Once upon a time a son complained to his mother that his life was miserable and that he didn’t know how he was going to make it. He was tired of fighting and struggling all the time. It seemed just as one problem was solved, another one soon followed. His mother, a chef, took him to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire.
Once the three pots began to boil, she placed potatoes in one pot, eggs in the second pot and ground coffee beans in the third pot. She then let them sit and boil, without saying a word to her son. The son, moaned and impatiently waited, wondering what she was doing. After twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She took the potatoes out of the pot and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. She then ladled the coffee out and placed it in a cup.
Turning to her son, she asked. “Son, what do you see?” “Potatoes, eggs and coffee,” he hastily replied.
“Look closer”, she said, “and touch the potatoes.” he did and noted that they were soft.
She then asked him to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, he observed the hard-boiled egg.
Finally, she asked him to sip the coffee. Its rich aroma brought a smile to his face.
“Mother, what does this mean?” he asked.
She then explained that the potatoes, the eggs and coffee beans had each faced the same adversity-the boiling water. However, each one reacted differently. The potato went in strong, hard and unrelenting, but in boiling water, it became soft and weak. The egg was fragile, with the thin outer shell protecting its liquid interior until it was put in the boiling water. Then the inside of the egg became hard. However, the ground coffee beans were unique. After they were exposed to the boiling water, they changed the water and created something new.
“Which one are you?” she asked her son. “When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a potato, an egg, or a coffee bean?”
Moral: In life, things happen around us, things happen to us, but the only thing that truly matters is how you choose to react to it and what you make out of it. Life is all about leaning, adopting and converting all the struggles that we experience into something positive.
Corey talked to his attorney wednesday, the prosecutor is offering him a deal of 16 years. If they go to trial he is looking at 25 to life, so he decided that he really has no choice but to take this. I am a mess, talking to him and trying to stay strong and not break down crying when im on the phone with him is probably one of the hardest things I have ever done. I feel so alone in all of this and just dont know what to do
1. I am the eldest of 9 children, and remind my siblings every chance i get
2. I was a single parent of 4 boys, and read every parenting book I could make time for until I was 40.
3. I remember nothing of my early childhood years, and often wonder if that is a good or a bad thing.
4. One of my favorite things to do is to read, even though I seldom do it anymore due to the fact that my eyes are not that good, I attribute that to karma.
5. I dont do alot of girlie things like..make-up, curling my hair, or shopping, but when I do I enjoy it...lol.
6. I work in a predominantly male work force, thats why I have such a keen insight into menfolk. (at least I like to think so
7. I would love to retire in a far, far, away place, but know it wont happen cause I would miss my family terribly.
8. I aspire to make more money, but dont want the headaches of a higher position at work.
9. I rack my brain on how to bring my gilly home, but know nothing i do alone wil get him home any sooner.
10. I enjoy every min that I spend with my family, but always look forward to getting home.
11. I believe that everything happens for a reason, but still wonder why.
12. I believe that knowledge is power, but I'am to lazy to further my education.
13. I'am so proud of the men my boys have become, but still wish things were different.
14. I'am married for the first time (40) and so glad I waited.
15. I love my husband very much, and wish I were as patient as him.
16. I strive to think before I speak, but that does'nt always happen.
17. I wish we would win the lottery, just enough to bring my mijo home.
18. I enjoy documentaries, but still get freaked out by them.
19. I worry that I'am not the person GOD intended for me to be.
20. I've become a step-parent and hope that they benefit from what Ive learned from being a parent to my own children.
21. I hate to dwell.
22. I tend to annyoy people with: as my husband would say..."MY OWN PHILOSPHY"
23. I know that I'am loved, but that sometimes they want to punch me in the face.
24. Reuniting with dear friends on Facebook, and sharing with the family is what I love about it (Facebook) the most.
25. I look forward to growing old, and pray its a graceful ride.
