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I went to visit my son today. I was not happy with what he had to say. My son has been in prison for almost 4 years. He is 25 years old and has been in counseling since he was 9. None of the counselors helped him and never found out his terrible secret. We finally found out when he went to jail. He was sexually assaulted when he was a child by an older almost adult person. Dillon never said a word. He was just always angry. Well Dillon told us after he was arrested that he is a transgender person and has always wanted to be a girl. I didn't take it to seriously because I thought it was just for attention. He went to all the trouble of changing his name to Riley Nicole and it is her legal name now. I have a hard time calling him a her and using Riley as his name.

 So today at our visit he tells us that he was taken to the hospital on January 10th by squad because he tried to cut his penis off. He said that his depression finally took over. He was bleeding out and almost died. I am his emergency contact at the prison and the hospital but no one notified us. How is it that I am just hearing about this now?? He said he told the people in medical at the prison to call me. They never did. He is on phone restriction right now because he quit his job there. So he never got to call and talk to us. I can usually talk some sense into him. What do they think is an emergency there? I think a person bleeding to death is considered an emergency. Am I crazy or is the mom in me?

 I guess I have been waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak. He talks about killing himself sometimes. I hate when he does that. He knows how I feel about it. I was a young mom when I had my daughter. She was killed in a car accident along with her father a long time ago. It was one of the worse times of my life. I always told Riley that I would never want to go thru that kind of pain again. Today I swallowed my heart. He or she says Mom I'm ok.

Thanks for listening to me ramble.

Barb