Suicide watch & shackles

I showed up for a court date for my son this afternoon. The deputy came out to tell my son's attorney that my son would be a ew minutes because he is on S3 suicide watch. I never got a call. His probation officer never got a call. How is that possible??? His PO is furious & im sure will let someone have an earful but that doesn't change the fact that nobody was notified. He's only 15 so I just don't get it.I don't think I'll ever get used to seeing my baby in shackles. It rips my heart out every time. I try so hard to be strong for my son but the tears just come and everytime that heavy door slams behind him & they've taken him again I feel like a huge part of my heart dies. This is torture. Does it ever get better?? Is there ever a sense of numbness to it or will it always rip me apart?
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  • Amie, you do a very good job describing the feelings. Honestly, it has never gotten any easier for me. I've been dealing with this since 2007. Your writing is very accurate and lets me know i am not the only one dealing with this type pain. Thank you for being so open.
  • Amie- this is another Easter without my son also. So sad! Iam raising my grandson, my sons son.hes the only reason i can go on with my life..i take him to see my son every wed & sundays.he will know his dad! I think about my son every day .im sure you do the same..keep the faith up & pray God watches over your son every minute of the day...again im sure you do that..God has this!! Hugs..carla
  • Thank you so much. It's so hard having yet another Easter without my baby. I've heard it's supposed to become a new norm but it isn't.
  • Amie- praying for you & your son..
    Its so hard to see our sons in shackles,chains & hand cuffs.it doesn't get easy..ive been through this for years & i still cant get that pic out of my head..its horrible!! Keep praying & know Gods with you all the time & your son..God bless.. Carla
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  • I apoligize, I'm working off a phone I went to push the comments and it the thumbs up thing. I work as a nurse with juveniles and I believe in an incarcerated situation it is still the law for the minors parent to be notified. I would definitely make a written complaint to the institution and insist on an answer as to why you were not notified. It is heart wrenching to see your boy in shackles. I've seen both my son's in shackles and it never gets easier to see that, but by God's love he will give you stength to carry on. I will pray for you.
  • That sight will never get easy. Every time we went to court and they parade them in, its awful. Sorry you are going through this.
  • I feel ur pain. Ii find it does get better. It still hurts like a knife but recovery has been better.
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