Good afternoon. I have just been accepted to this website and I hope I may find support here.
That sounds so lame but my son was incarcerated on August 25th and has 5 felony counts pending; 3 of them for 2nd degree murder. He struck his girlfriend's child, who was almost 3, and he caused brain damage which led to his death. I haven't even been able to write those words because they are so horrible.
This is the latest in a history of events; drug abuse, alcohol, vehicular manslaughter, etc. I try not to think about it too much but it's a weight that I keep giving to Jesus. At the same time though, I am his mom!!
I made a lot of mistakes in my life and it's easy to look back and say, "If only........." How does one live with this?????
I am reading, "When I Lay My Isaac Down" which a couple people recommended. My son has children too. The oldest two which this affects more than the others.
I would so appreciate any words of wisdom.
Thank you.
Blessings.
Birdie
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Birdie - My son is about to start his second stint behind walls. 1st time he was 19 and did 4 1/2 years - I truly thought he was done with that life but unfortunately not - He also has what sound like horrific crimes - he signed a plea deal as to not take the chance at trial. He had something like 36 charges - child rape, assault, drugs, organized crime, etc. The child rape is from a 15 year old girl that had ID saying she was 19 - facebook page also said she was 19 - how is someone to know??? Organized crime is anytime 3 or more people are involved in a crime - I don't claim him to be an angel but he definitely is not the person(monster) they are trying to make him out to be. He too is my son and no matter what choices he makes in life will always be my son - I also have not always made the best choices so I get it - I try to explain that most people could be one poor decision away from trouble yet they don't understand that - really if you think about it that's the truth of the matter. Just be there for him as best you can and love him - make sure you love yourself also - I'm sure this was not the outcome your son envisioned when this all occurred - like I said one bad decision away........ My son has two beautiful daughters that I am left here to answer questions from. They bring me so much joy I am thankful each day that they are in my life. Hang in there I try to log on often so if you'd like chat back and we can keep in touch.