My son is in jail for drug charge. He has been on a downward spiral since about 16 or in some respects since he was 11 and his dad died of cancer. It was of course a huge blow to me and my sons and something none of us will recover from ever.. But life goes on and for him it goes on in not so positive of a manner.. I have chased him around on old dirt roads, taken away keys, taken away phones, cars, sent him to church camp, and about everything you can imagine to turn his direction. IT has not worked obviously. So several wrecked cars later and a second arrest here we are.. I have new respect for families of loved ones in jail. You just can't know the pain until you go through it. He won't be in there much longer, but unless jail has really made an impression then I expect this will continue. So I'm praying for the best, but also facing what has become my life for the last few years. I needed some mental support. It's not something you share at work as you just get looks of judgment. They don't mean to, but I guess they just can't help it. So I keep to myself. Cry by myself.. So I was glad when I came upon this site. On the up side he looks better now then I've seen him in years. His skin was clear and he had put on some weight. I think the clean life agrees with him. Thank you for letting me share! K
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I appreciate all the support and kind words of understanding. He actually gets out the end of this week. He has been in a month. While this may not be long to some, it's been like an eternity for me. It is just out of desperation to get him to wake up that I just allowed the process to unfold. My pleas just fell on deaf ears. I haven't gone to ww.NAorg yet because I have been so busy just dealing with all of it in the sense that taking him shirts, socks, writing letters, letting family know, changing his phone, anything and everything! Also trying to prepare myself for the fact that if it continues like it has for the last four or five years I'll be right back only longer. I'm not trying to be negative, just trying to brace myself emtionally. You would do anything for your kids, but you can't make them do what's right! Even if they were raised that way!!
I know its hard. My son has biepoler and the ups and downs and his way of thinking is beyond me at times. I have to let go and let God is what most people say but you just cant. I find it much easier to have friends here who understand. My prayes are with you.
Praying that he stays with the program when he gets out.