About Us

I sit here tonight recovering from a huge anxiety attack last night.  The next day I felt like I had been run over by a bus.  I can deal but its kind of shocking when it comes about.  

A little about me, I am a mother of an Incarcerated son.  He went in a little over a year ago, directly from the hospital where he stayed for 9 days after being shot.  Essentially, he was involved in a drug deal that went bad.  His injuries have healed on the outside, but now he is dealing with reality.  I feel like I have been living a lifetime movie.  I still feel like this is all surreal.  I actually got to physically hug him 2 weeks ago, an early birthday present.  It was very bittersweet.  He is looking at 7-10 years if he decides to plea out and not go to trial.  He is not sure what he wants to do yet.  WAITING IS THE HARDEST PART.....I ache for him so much it hurts me to my core.  Other days I am good and can function and work.  Sometimes the work helps.  I am a massage therapist/esthetician/energy worker/makeup artist.  This mothers day was ok.....sad but ok.  I worked so that helped.  How do you all deal day to day.  Tips would be helpful.  I have my own list like, talk to someone, go to group, get a massage, pedicure, have lunch with a friend.  I go visit at least once a week on video, until he gets out of county.  I usually talk to him every day.  Lately, he has not called and its hurting....I can feel he is assessing what he should do.  I have a visit set up for tomorrow so I will get to see him.  Ahhhh the new normal....I am sorry to say it sucks.  Thank you for letting me vent.  I appreciate it makes me feel not so alone and crazy.  

Anthony's Mom