Not one single day has by that I don't think of my son. it's been a year since he's been locked away what kills me the most is knowing that he's alone in there and he has to spend his birthday, Mothers Day, holidays Behind Bars and not able to call when he wants, come by & visit his family, he has no freedom. it hurts me so much imagining what he must feel like being in there. sitting there wondering how his family is doing. When I get his letters my heart breaks even more. Im slowly breaking my self down into pieces each day, Im so worried about him, everything I do or say involves him, I have let myself go, my health is failing, I just feel like Im in a bubble and Im trying to find a way to get my son out of there, like its my first priority, because Im his only parent and its my job to help my children, I will feel like a failure if I don't save him! I need to talk I need to let all of these feelings out so that I can get back in focus of my life, I have 2 other kids who need me too. I just want my son home.
Sorry, a year is a long time for you to feel imprisoned too. My son told me really early on that it was more unbearable to him if he felt I suffered as I did, as he did. He is wise and asked me to live, really live and tell him about it so he had hope for something to come out for. So I attempt to do that everyday and then I write him about my living and send pictures. It helps both of us. Hugs, really big hugs. Glad you are here
Hi Christina, Welcome. I too think about my son every awakened moment.My life is stuck.I have to snap out of it and give my other 2 boys attention also.I Can't short change them.This situation with my son has consumed my life. I can't change my sons situation. All I can do is pray.I miss my son so much.I will never stop fighting for him.This pain is horrible. We are here for you and praying for you and your son.
I know you are hurting and sad over your son's situation. I too, have been known to let myself go. I need to go back to work, but I don't want to deal with the outside world. I used to never go to bed without a shower, now I sometimes sleep in the clothes I have on at bedtime...my hair looks like it has not been shampooed in days. However, I find going to church very helpful. Our church is an outreach to the people in the community who have been incarcerated, addicts, homeless or who have family with various issues. You are not a failure and Jesus loves you and your family unconditionally!!! Try to get some rest, pray, and stay in the Word. Satan loves to see us get down...but he ultimately is the loser!!!!
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Sorry, a year is a long time for you to feel imprisoned too. My son told me really early on that it was more unbearable to him if he felt I suffered as I did, as he did. He is wise and asked me to live, really live and tell him about it so he had hope for something to come out for. So I attempt to do that everyday and then I write him about my living and send pictures. It helps both of us. Hugs, really big hugs. Glad you are here
I know you are hurting and sad over your son's situation. I too, have been known to let myself go. I need to go back to work, but I don't want to deal with the outside world. I used to never go to bed without a shower, now I sometimes sleep in the clothes I have on at bedtime...my hair looks like it has not been shampooed in days. However, I find going to church very helpful. Our church is an outreach to the people in the community who have been incarcerated, addicts, homeless or who have family with various issues. You are not a failure and Jesus loves you and your family unconditionally!!! Try to get some rest, pray, and stay in the Word. Satan loves to see us get down...but he ultimately is the loser!!!!