My story

Hello,

My name is Angel. Im 37 years old and this is my first time blogging or even being part of an online group. Forgive me if I do not know the lingo. Im familiar with Snap chat lol. But anyway, my first born son was just sentenced to 23 years 8 months. He was arrested March 2016 just 2 months after his 18th birthday and has been in county jail ever since. He will be shipped off to prison in just a few weeks. Trial was one of the hardest things I've gone through. I felt like I was emotionally beat up every day for 2 weeks. But I had to be there for my son. Then came the conviction, and sentencing was just last Friday. My son will not be home for a very long time. Im looking for ways to cope and hoping to meet other mothers that know exactly what Im going through. This isn't the type of thing you let your co-workers know or I do not feel comfortable telling them. Family and friends do not know what this feels like as they have not been in my shoes fortunately. They try to be supportive but I can tell they are just trying to find the right words to say.

Im sad, I get angry, and Im scared to death of what my son will have to face in prison. I feel the enhancement laws are not fair and that they are unjust. My son would have got a sentence less than 10 years but due to the enhancement law he received more than double the sentence. How does this provide a chance to rehabilitate? An over extended stay in prison at such a young age? Its just not fair.

Well thanks for hearing me. And hello to you all.

Angel

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Comments

  • My son was sentenced in January 25 yrs.I'm trying to learn how to live.cse of his charges I'm the only one that hasn't walked away..I haven't dealt with the pain..plus i know he's still lieing to me..idk how to deal with this..i joined for support..I'm in Tennessee
  • I so hate what you are going through. My son was 18 the first time, he's now 37 and has been in prison over half his life. I try very hard to focus on the good things in my life. I hope these moms can be a help to you.
  • Here for you and my heart hurts for you as well. Praying for you and him and your family.
  • I’m sorry. This new “normal” is very difficult. We’re all here for you.
  • I’m so sorry Angel. Your words are right from my mouth. My son is home now, but on probation 7 years. If he messes up, I lose him 12-15 years. My heart is still broken and my worry is still there. I asked my 16 year old daughter today if she thinks her brother will ever grow up and be able to stand on his own two feet. I don’t know how to survive this new normal. Or if my new normal changes again to prison time. I live each day worrying about the worry, if that makes sense. I really don’t know. But I read your message and cried for you. I’m so sorry for your new normal. It is an unbearable thing for a mother to endure.
  • Welcome Angel. What a beautiful name! We all understand and this is a safe place to vent, ask question and reduce of the feeling of being isolated. My family knows they don’t truly understand but I know they love me and my son. That is enough. Be good to yourself.
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