I Never Knew...

So, sentencing was yesterday ... awful experience :( but afterward I ran around to two different jails to pick up Jessica's personal property.. the one with her cell contents has all of her court paperwork and a lot of background documents that supported her plea to not pursue the death penalty.. I've read through most of it already and I am absolutely APPALLED!!!

My daughter had been committed for psych evaluations on four different occasions in the months preceding her incarceration.. I never knew just how sick my baby was/is... omg she was hearing voices and seeing shadowy figures she called "Mr. D" .. the voices were telling her to hurt herself. There was one entry where they suspected development of multiple personalities, that she "became" Mr. Dean.. but then they allowed her to be discharged after only a few days... with prescriptions for medications she never took.. FOUR TIMES THEY DID THIS!!!!

During the week after she was incarcerated, the state psychiatrist diagnosed her bi-polar with psychotic episodes...

I get angry all over again ... it appears there was ample evidence that would have supported an "innocent by reason of insanity" but WHY????? Why did they NOT do anything 6 months earlier??? The cost for their negligence was the life of an upstanding young man... the cost of their negligence forever altered several families including ours... and WHY??? did our defense team not pursue the insanity plea???

Jessica doesn't deserve to be in prison for the next 40 years... she deserves to be in a facility that can treat her mental illness...

I wish there was something I could do to make the facility that discharged her after KNOWING the depth of her mental illness pay for their negligence ... THEY SHOULD PAY.. not my Jessie

Wow I just went back to your very first post, I needed to try to understand what was going on. I'm in California and what I just don't understand if we have mentally ill children how can the system put them in prison without any help?? My son told us that many times that there r inmates that just shouldn't be in the prison that so many are in. I'm praying for your visits,my our daughter visits and your daughter that is locked up. My daughter lives in Mesa az and I have a friend that's son was transferred from Ca to Az prison and he did say the food was better if that means anything lol! My son pretty much cooks his own stuf. Goes to breakfast so he can get his lunch bag bt most of the time he stays to himself? My son has no children praise the lord for that. He got married in prison which I don't understand ,but he's been married for about 8 yrs now, crazy

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Judy Wood March 1, 2015 at 2:58am

Gaylynn, and to make matters worse, when Jess was transferred to the state prison for women, she visited with the psychiatrist there who told her she was most definitely bi-polar and heavy PTSD.. he went on to say if she had been being treated, this would never have happened and she would not be in prison today... she cried :'(
Gaylynn February 28, 2015 at 11:35pm

Wow I just went back to your very first post, I needed to try to understand what was going on. I'm in California and what I just don't understand if we have mentally ill children how can the system put them in prison without any help?? My son told us that many times that there r inmates that just shouldn't be in the prison that so many are in. I'm praying for your visits,my our daughter visits and your daughter that is locked up. My daughter lives in Mesa az and I have a friend that's son was transferred from Ca to Az prison and he did say the food was better if that means anything lol! My son pretty much cooks his own stuf. Goes to breakfast so he can get his lunch bag bt most of the time he stays to himself? My son has no children praise the lord for that. He got married in prison which I don't understand ,but he's been married for about 8 yrs now, crazy
Duecesmom~Deb December 21, 2014 at 1:30pm

Prison is not the answer for the mentally ill, unfortunately our prisons are full of mentally ill inmates. I don't have the answers but I do know just locking up our challenged sons/daughters with no treatment is not the answer. The best of luck to you and your daughter. Sorry you have to deal with this
Judy Wood December 21, 2014 at 7:32am

I think I'm going to call NAMI first thing Monday morning... we can still file a PCR within 90 days and that would retract the plea agreement but set her back to the original charges. The judge said we could get a PD if we could not afford an atty... All of this evidence should be addressed
Pamela Paley December 20, 2014 at 10:57pm

I am so sorry for you and Jessica. My prayers and heart go out to both of you and am hoping she finds some peace..
Penny Lafrance December 20, 2014 at 9:16pm

My son has been in and out of mental health facilities since he was twelve. This is his third time in prison. He is 31. My heart goes out to you..aches for you. People don't understand. Just lock them up with no help. I wish I could tell you this is all a nightmare and you are going to wake up. So very hard. So very sad. More emotions than you ever thought possible. Big hugs.
Tammy Romano December 20, 2014 at 9:13pm

I'm so so very sorry for you and Jessica i really don't know what to say Judy May god hold you and Jessica in his arms

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