Today is the first court date. I took the day off work to be there, but my bud thinks it's better if I'm not there because her abusive, no contact order husband will be there and she doesn't want extra stress?! This is the first time I'm struggling with my own personal thoughts. Out of respect for her, and in honor of being there for her for whatever she wants or needs, I'm not there. she wants to get together immediately after...but...If I'm being honest, it's killing me! I'm torn between just going, knowing she isn't thinking straight and doesn't need to be dealing with him alone; and honoring her wishes, not wanting to add any more stress to a horrible situation! As her best friend, it's torture for me to know she's going to see her son in person for the first time in a while, he'll be cuffed, it will be hard for her, and I won't be there for her...I've been there for her every step of the way, and will continue...just feeling completely helpless at this very moment.But she gets to choose, and, although I don't fully understand, out of love and respect for her I will do whatever she wants. Just having a difficult time walking that fine line of doing what really is best for her and gauging if she is still aware of what that is.She keeps telling me nothing is really going to happen at this court date and she'll be fine.. I hope she's right! I will never forgive myself if she's wrong. My heart is with her, and I'm praying for her. So, I will trust God to take care of her until she calls me. He can do a much better job than I can anyway!
Thank you for that comment and prayer! My friend's brother went with her...otherwise I would have been there whether she told me to or not. I'm just waiting to hear from her now.
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