Oh my God, just talked to my son, he just got moved out of the orientation unit to a permanent place and he is so depressed. He had been trying to call me all day and I was working outside and didn't hear my phone. When he finally got thru to me he was crying and telling me his depression is horrible. I just feel awful. I think it is because with his depression any change is so hard for him. He had gotten used to the past few months in orientation and had a job and made a few friends and had his tv. Now it is a brand new environment, he doesn't know anyone and is pretty shy. He has to wait for a cubicle and whatever to be open so he can have his tv. He just went there yesterday and doesn't know anyone and I think just everything is strange and the time he still has ahead of him is really hitting him. My God, what do you do but try to assure him things will get better and I love him and just wish I could do anything. I said I would try to come see him on Saturday but he said that will just make it worse. I had just been feeling better because he seemed better and now back to square one. This is so damn hard..don't know how we will ever get thru this. I just hate it. What can I do?
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I havent been on MISS for awhile and I wonder whether there will ever come a time when I can just log in, and read a story and not cry. My heart breaks all the time when I come on here and I see what other moms are enduring. I am so sorry to hear about your son. It hurts me to know what he is going through. Keep on being positive and encouraging him. I think the hardest thing about any of our children being is jail is the not knowing. You don't know from minute to minute or day to day how they are until you get the call and they say they're alright. But most of the time they aren't really alright. Just say that they are so we don't worry. Every day that they there, they hurt just as much, if not more, than we do. I hate prisons as a form of punishment. I think that there are so many more creative ways to help our children understand that what they have done is wrong and unacceptable. But society believes that its easier to just lock them away and mistreat them than it is to actually spend any time trying to help and rehabilitate them. I pray for stability for your son and peace of mind. I will keep you and him in my prayers.
Leah
Thank you so much for always having kind words and good advice..when I see what so many are going thru it makes my situation seem not so bad.