I just got off the phone with my son.This is an emotional rollercoaster. Every time I think that he's coming home my hope gets knocked back down.I have adjusted somewhat to him in the county but prison I can't even bear. I am so afraid of my son going to prison with all of those gang members. I'm afraid that he will get hurt or killed.This slow process is killing me inside and we are only 3 months in.I never thought that this would happen.I always thought he would stay out of trouble.I just wish that my 20 year old son would get a second chance.I continue to pray and trust God.
Hold on Monica and let the healing process begin .None of this is easy it's just that different parts of this process are not as hard as others.I know that you miss your son I miss mine also.
Lisa i can relate to you son was just found guilty, it has been so hard on me. On top of everything i have been so hard and have been pushing my husband away. My son is 21 yrs old and an addict. I have not seen him since around 2011. I am so lost right now i cant go anywhere without wanting to break down. He is in another state so when evertything
was going on court, jail, trial i could not be there for him.
Thank you for addiTill now i have felt so alone as if no one understands. Sometimes i just need to vent without a returned comment and i cant even get that. My son has been protrayed as a monster but i know he is not. The victim was the drug dealer who just two days ago texted my daughter in law sorry for introducing my son to a world of lies and fake friends and was sorry that her babies will not have their daddy around. But he is thankful for being alive and now has god in his life. WHERE DO WE BEGIN HEAL my grandbabies are 2 and 4, the 4 yr old is still waiting to go fishing with his daddy.
I'm not not sure if i did the right thing or not but i needed to do it for my own piece of mine and spoke to the victims moms. Come to find out she has enabled her son for 20 yrs and she will pray for my son but he got what he deserved. My reaction to her was im sorry u feel that way. To me its called self reflection. Because you were the one who pushed for the maxium punicment for my son. Due to the fact of who she knows and how much money they spent. In my eyes both sides were wrong. And my grandbabies are left without their daddy.
I try to keep busy as much as i can but nothing helps.
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was going on court, jail, trial i could not be there for him.
Thank you for addiTill now i have felt so alone as if no one understands. Sometimes i just need to vent without a returned comment and i cant even get that. My son has been protrayed as a monster but i know he is not. The victim was the drug dealer who just two days ago texted my daughter in law sorry for introducing my son to a world of lies and fake friends and was sorry that her babies will not have their daddy around. But he is thankful for being alive and now has god in his life. WHERE DO WE BEGIN HEAL my grandbabies are 2 and 4, the 4 yr old is still waiting to go fishing with his daddy.
I'm not not sure if i did the right thing or not but i needed to do it for my own piece of mine and spoke to the victims moms. Come to find out she has enabled her son for 20 yrs and she will pray for my son but he got what he deserved. My reaction to her was im sorry u feel that way. To me its called self reflection. Because you were the one who pushed for the maxium punicment for my son. Due to the fact of who she knows and how much money they spent. In my eyes both sides were wrong. And my grandbabies are left without their daddy.
I try to keep busy as much as i can but nothing helps.
With all my heart
Monica