Drowning

Somebody please help me. My life is falling apart. It started September 2nd, 2014 when my oldest child, 21, was arrested for statutory rape, let out on bond, arrested again January 2nd following a huge investigation, let out on bond again only to have his bond revoked February 3rd. By that time he had 18 felonies, looking at the possibility of life in prison. He took the lowest plea bargain the DA would offer in May and was sentenced to 40 years with 10 mandatory in prison. His been in prison since June. I never knew I could feel so much pain or see a darker, deeper depression. I've attempted suicide, had a few mental breaks, been on a lot of medication, etc. My engine blew up in my car 2 months ago, I had a bad accident last month in the company vehicle where I work due largely to my lack of concentration which resulted in my termination. So now I'm facing my first holidays without my son, a very inadequate mother to my other 3 children, no job, no money, in jeapordy of losing my apartment, and now my boyfriend of 8 years because he can't handle my depression and anger anymore. I have become extremely isolated and depressed. In drowning. Somebody please help me. Please give me the tools to get back up. Everyone is worried about me but I honestly don't know how to deal with this anymore. I hurt more for my son than for myself. I need advise. Please

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Stace December 1, 2015 at 8:35pm

Praying..and reaching out message me any time.
Ann November 27, 2015 at 3:04pm

Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!
Lydia Long November 27, 2015 at 2:42pm

I'm so sorry Ann.. That happens to me a lot too.. It's truly indescribable grieve that never goes away.. We just have to live minute to minute.. I'm here for you
Ann November 27, 2015 at 1:59pm

I had a great morning and then just started missing my son! Alot
Lydia Long November 27, 2015 at 1:31pm

That was very well said and so all very true. Thank you so much mommas for all your understanding, compassion, advise and comfort
Ann November 27, 2015 at 5:48am

Thank You!!!!! Right on point
Ann November 26, 2015 at 4:42am

I know your despair! My son is 17, in and out of jail.he has had every opportunity to change! Recently arrested on serious gun charges, he is facing 15 years.my heart aches for him! I sometimes am so full of heartache that I can't breathe. I wake up every day, feeling guilty that I'm breathing, when he's in jail. I know in my heart he had to be accountable,and I have two other children to care for. I'm trying to go on! Day by day, minute by minute.
Penny Lafrance November 25, 2015 at 11:04pm

Counseling has helped me.. Along with an antidepressant. Sometimes we need some help
We are here..and we hear you. Hugs!
Lydia Long November 25, 2015 at 9:48pm

I went yo counseling one time only because my doctor gave me a choice between a mental hospital and that but it was too painful and after that one session i found myself moredepressed than before so I never went back
Cindy Mylles November 25, 2015 at 9:40pm

I agree with Ramona that sometimes we need to seek professional help. I started therapy as well. One of the other things that helped me was learning about the grief process. That helped me tremendously because I realized what I was feeling and going through was completely normal.

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