A year n a half of 110.

It's less than a year and half but already seems like forever. I haven't seen my son since his sentsenting. I'm going to give a little back story.

Hi, my name is teri. I am 48yrs old. I have had 6 children. My kids weren't always with me. I'm 12 years clean n sober. My oldest son is 31 and was convicted of deliberate homicide. His sentenceing was Jan 17th 2017. He is not eligible for parole for 45 years. I am disabled. My son took care of me. Now it has fallen onto my youngest, she is only 20. I have tried several times to go visit him. Life gets in my way. I ended up homeless when he was arrested. I was living in my truck for about 7 months. Till my daughter asked me to move to billings to live with her. This Thursday my daughter is taking me to see him. I don't know if I can handle this. I skippsk alot of visiting while he was in county because it caused me so much stress It made me sick. How do I face him? I love him so very much. I don't see the man they portrayed in court. Dang its hard to text while crying. I see my little boy. And he's hurting. I have to stop for now. I'm crying to much. I write more soon.

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Amy Schmidt March 31, 2018 at 8:52pm

I am praying for you Theresa. And im praying for your son. Mine has no sentence yet, so its the land of unknown future for me. But i pray that you and your son find ways to be close, and that you both feel the real love you have. Lots of wise women advice i read above.
Janet March 11, 2018 at 12:31pm

God uses us as his ministering angels. You can't take anything but love to visitation, but love is what your son needs. Thank him for helping you when he could. Tell him you will write to him, pray for him, and visit him when you can. No matter how he reacts, you are there to show him that he is loved. You will feel better, knowing you did what you could. May God give you strength and comfort!
Deb February 20, 2018 at 1:42pm

Congrats on your sobriety. You have one a tough battle and have the strength for this one. Cry, laugh, rejoice in your blessings. Give the rest to God. We have done the best we can. I will not likely be live to see my son released (sentenced to50 years)so I understand your pain.

Hugs and prayers
Kenya DiBartolo February 19, 2018 at 12:18pm

My son was 17 when he was sentenced and he’s 18 now. So seeing my baby who is still so very young behind a glass window was heartbreaking . However, it gave me so much joy to be able to be that close to him. I broke down several times when I left but I stayed strong for him while I was there. To see his smile, hear his laughter made all my tears worth it. Ask God for strength to endure and I promise you he will give it to you. Praying for you and your son and your family. God Bless.
Lisa Collins February 19, 2018 at 12:09pm

It will be hard, but you will push past it. There will be tears and that’s ok. Each visit will become easier. They will always be our little boys. He needs to see you, as much as you need to see him. Hang in there. You can do it.

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