I ONCE HEARD THAT ANGER WAS FEAR INSIDE OUT , THE DICTIONAY SAYS , ANGERMEANS HOT DISPLEASED , OFTEN BECAUSE OF OPPOSITION , OF HURT .A MOTHER's ANGER IS WHEN IT COMES TO HER CHILDREN , IS EMOTIONALLYUNCONTRLLED WITHIN THE DEPTHS OF HER SOUL . IN MY CASE I EXPERIENCEDTHE UNFAIRNESS OF THE JUSTICE SYSTEM , OR PLEADING WITH A JUDGE FORMERCY FOR MY SON, AND I AM NOT HEARD , BETRAYED, DISAPPOINTEDOR JUST PLANE LET DOWN . THE ANGER TAKES CENTER STAGE OF MY MIND .I AM SURE ALOT OF US HAVE FELT THE PAIN AND ANGER , WE ARE HELPLESSSO WE CRY WITH THE ANGER AND HEARTBREAK , AS IT INTENSIFIES THE PAINAND HURT AS WE SINK INTO DEPRESSION OURSELVES OFF TO THE WORLD ONLYCOMMUNICATING WHEN WE HAVE TO .AT THE END OF THE DAY , ALL YOU WANT IS YOUR SON . YOUR HEART LONGSFOR HIM DAY AND NIGHT . IF WE COULD STAND OUTSIDE THE BOB WIRE FENCESAND YELL TO OUR SONS , " MON IS. HERE , WE WOULD DO IT DAY AND NIGHT ,BUT IN REALITY WE CAN NOT COME TO THE AID , BUT CAN HOPE AND DREAMTHAT THEY WILL WALK THROUGH THE GATE WITH US STANDING ON THE OTHERSIDE OF IT .NOW THE ANGER HAS CALMED DOWN FROM A FAITLDF JUSTICE SYSTEM , OUREYES ARE PUFFY AND WERE TIRED FROM CRYING , THE HURT AND PAIN GRIPSOUR HEART EVEN MORE , ALL THE TIME WE JUST SIT THERE AND STARE UNTIL.THE NEXT EPISODE OF ANGET OCCURS..ALL THE TIME IF WE COULD STAND BEFORE THE COURT , PRISON GUARDS, ETC.WE WOULD SAY , " WHATEVER YOU DO , DO NOT MESS WITH MY CHILD . IT TAKESCOURAGE TO STAND IN A COURT ROOM AND WATCH YOUR SON BEING ESCORTEDOUT OF THE COURT ROOM KNOWING HE IS NOT COMING HOME . IT TAKES COURAGETO SEE HIM IN HANDCUFFS AND SHAKLES AND NOT TO CRY STILL YOU GET HOME , ORTO TALK TO HIM ON THE PHONE WITHOUT BREAKING DOWN , IT IS WRITTEN THATCERTAIN ANGELS IN HEAVEN COLLECT THE TEARS OF GOD's PEOPLE IN A BOTTLE ANDSTORE THE BOTTLES IN AN APPOINTED PLACE TO KEEP .THERE HAS TO BE A SEPERATE ROOM FOR TEARS OF A MOTHER . THROUGHOUTTHE PAINFUL MONTHS AND YEARS IS THE CRYING FROM A BROKEN HEART ASWELL AS FROM FEAR . THR LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL SOONER ORLATER IS WHEN IT ALL STOPS .YOU ARE HERE BECAUSE YOU KNOW SOMETHING , WHAT YOU KNOW YOU CANNOT EXPLANE , BUT YOU FEEL IT . YOU HAVE FELT IT YOUR ENTIRE LIFE , THATTHERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE WORLD , YOU DO NO WHAT IT IS BUT ITIS TRUE , A SPLINTER IN YOUR MIND .HOW CAN ONE HEART , ONE BODY , AND ONE SOUL ENDURE SO MUCH ?WHEN IT COMES TO OUR CHILDREN , WE ARE BARLEY ALIVE OURSELVESUNTIL THIS CHAPTER OF OUR LIFE IS CLOSED FOREVER.LORD BLESS.
It is such a hard thing as a mother to watch your son go in these big places behind cement walls, a kind of barb wire. Knowing they will be there awhile. He is still my baby that sweet little boy and only all of you can understand this. Thank you for being here. God bless all the young people behind those concrete walls.
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That is why what we see the judge and parole board does not , I am half BEDRIDEN , praying
I will be alive when he gets out , they will always e our babies , We all our strong women that
Is why God chose us , but TRUELY I do grieve for all of us , it is so hard , blessings
It is such a hard thing as a mother to watch your son go in these big places behind cement walls, a kind of barb wire. Knowing they will be there awhile. He is still my baby that sweet little boy and only all of you can understand this. Thank you for being here. God bless all the young people behind those concrete walls.
For my son , this battle has been going on eleven yrs, praying God will keep me around
Long enough to see him come home , I will be by his side through it all , for he is my
Gift from God , and I give God the glory , thank Carol for your support , this is my sons
First time in prison , also REMEBER they have God , and God is bigger then their problem
He will see us all through for that is where we get the STRGENTH to endure , hugs